late night thoughts

What A Privilege and Sorrow It Is to Be Able to Love Someone

There is nothing more beautiful and more painful than loving someone. To be able to hold them close and feel their heart beat at the same time as yours. To […]

Living Happily Ever After

A lot of folks out there want to have their own “happily ever after.” That’s why a lot of media ends with a “happily ever after,” or at least some form of it so that the audience can live vicariously through the character to get some form of satisfaction.

who am I anymore?

Has anyone ever felt like their name is not their own name? I’ve been feeling this disassociation for a while now. I’m not even sure if I can confidently tell you my name anymore because it almost feels like I don’t have a name. I just am.

why i left stan twitter

I speak only from my experience with stan Twitter. I have recently written an article that summarizes what I think is the problem with stan Twitter. Stan Twitter is one of the, if not the most, toxic places you can be in.

i hope i choke

I don’t even know why I am writing this. I didn’t want to write it because I don’t know, I thought maybe these deep dark secrets might come back to haunt me, whether or not I actually do fulfill the life I imagined for myself. But I guess it’s not […]

anywhere, just not here

Home is where the dark thoughts are. It’s quieter here. I know this place, I grew up in this place — well, mostly. I have so many memories here that it’s hard to escape the haunting times when you lay in bed at night, staring at the ceiling and listening […]